It never gets old because I am so bad at it.
Recently, I read this blog post by Rohan that reminded me that one of the reasons I am not present in my life, or TO and IN my life, is that I have such a hard time saying no.
I say yes when I don’t want to (or even when I want to say yes, but know — deep down — that saying no is better for me).
This takes me out of the present moment. If not immediately, then it definitely pulls me out of the present moment when the yes I agreed to comes “due,” so to speak.
I am — humans are — notoriously bad at imagining what our future self wants and needs. We think everything will be exactly as it is in this moment.
But I am overwhelmed in this moment, too.
There’s the rub.
Will I ever learn?
I am starting to.
Now I keep a list of the things I’ve said no to. So I can remind myself — prove to myself — that I can, in fact, do it and am getting better at it.